self love

I want to run,
To lash out,
To kick and scream
At your apparent rejection
Which is really just me
Rejecting….. me.

Why am I not good enough 
To love, self?

The story drones on
“You will never be the chosen one” 
And my heart bleeds, 
Tears flow down the river of avoidance
Of the feeling

When will I learn
To love me, self?

When will I see
The only relationship I have
Is with……me?